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Writer's Block: Star-crossed

Have you ever secretly loved someone you shouldn't have? If so, did you confess your feelings? Any regrets either way?


Oh, I hate you writer's block question. Truly.

Haven't we all, really? Yes, I loved someone I shouldn't have. Honestly, I'm not sure what their feelings were for me - we were friends for the longest time, but could it have been more than that? Possibly. I never said anything, and at the end, my heart was well and truly broken.

I dream about them more than is probably good for me. When I'm stressed out, my brain uses them as a dream stressor, which means I often wake up either in tears, or close to them. Thanks brain for that. The only good thing to come out of any of it, other than making my last two years of high school more interesting than they should've been for a strict Christian school, is that I have a lot of pretty strong emotion (even a decade or so later) to use when I write.

It used to be, I couldn't really think about them, and the few times I saw them, I was pretty close to tears. Which isn't really healthy I don't think, especially given it wasn't an actual relationship. But that's love for you I suppose - it isn't rational. Let me tell you though, that shit ENDURES. I might not cry anymore, but it's still there, close to the surface. It doesn't hurt, but it could, you know? *sigh*

Any regrets you ask, (stupid writers block)? Of course. I should've said something...anything about how I felt. But, I didn't. Really, I know that things worked out the way they should've. There's no way a relationship would've worked, and if it had, I wouldn't be most of the things I am today. And I like the things I am. So, there's that.

So, thanks for that BS today LJ.

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And because I need to end this entry with something positive, STAT. Have a few awesome links from the inception_kink community.

First there is OLD SPICE MAN ! ARTHUR. Amazing. This is pretty much the entirety of what I think about Arthur now.

And then there's THE MOST INTERESTING MAN IN THE WORLD ! SAITO. And then if you scroll down there's a comment fic that's Old Spice Man / Saito - which I didn't know the world needed. But it does. It's right up there with the LOLCat fic from Yuletide.

Comments

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dwg
Jul. 29th, 2010 05:35 pm (UTC)
I have been spending way too much time in the Inception kink meme. And I approve of all of these things. I was gong to suggest there needs to be an Old Spice! AU of the movie, but that would probably be just the movie as it is.

I can't get this movie out of my heeeaaaad.
cherith
Jul. 29th, 2010 05:48 pm (UTC)
I have no time to do so, but I so want to go see this movie again.

And again, I have no time (maybe after GenCon) but I was thinking about your Greek Myths!Inception the other day, and thought that I should totally do up a fanmix for that.
dwg
Jul. 29th, 2010 05:58 pm (UTC)
DOOOO EEEEEET! \8D/
cherith
Jul. 30th, 2010 03:26 pm (UTC)
I've already started. Found the perfect song for Cobb too.
uberreiniger
Jul. 29th, 2010 06:39 pm (UTC)
THE SAITO/OLD SPICE FIC IS BETTER FOR THE FACT THAT IT IS APPARENTLY NARRATED BY DEATH FROM DISCWORLD.
cherith
Jul. 30th, 2010 03:27 pm (UTC)
I think when dealing with that level of POWAH, there's just no other way to write it.
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