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I plan, yet fail...

Oh, yes. A livejournal. I remember this.
My first post since surgery. Technically this was really the first day I've felt really good. For about the first five days, I was dead. I think I'm allergic to both forms of pain killers the doctor prescribed for me. As, not so much the pain, but the extreme nausea kept me out of any normal functioning pattern. I could move without feeling really ill. I had to have someone hovering anytime I needed to get up for fear I wouldn't be able to stand. Yesterday morning, I woke up and realized I'd never gotten up in the middle of the night to take a pill, and yet the pain wasn't killing me, so I held off. I felt decent, still woosy and depressed and in pain, but eh...better than with the pain pills. So we went out and about the town for about and hour, I saw the sun, and I realized how sick the pain pills were making me, not the pain. So today, I held off again, I'm thinking I might give driving a try tomorrow.
I've been staying with my friend Anjanette and her parents, and although I adore them, I think I might be coming close to overstaying my welcome. I know sick people aren't fun to take care of, and they've been extrememly sweet about the whole thing, doctoring me and everything, but I don't want to be here much longer if I can be home on my own. I think physically I'm feeling up to being home, I'm a little restless, wanting to be at my own apartment, with my cable, and my computer, and things. Emotionally, I'm not sure I'm ready to be home alone yet, so we'll se how that works out. Especially after the day I had today.
I got a message this morning from work, and when I got up and around, I called back to speak with the stupid woman I don't like in the office. She informed me that she was emailed back today about my leave of absense request for surgery, and I was denied. So since I've already been off work for a week, they had to process my termination. Of course, I'm welcome to come in and reapply and if they have anything available, they give me a job. I'm sure a lesser job, with lesser pay, but hey, they'd be doin me a favor in the long run, right? Bullshit. Like this is one of the last things I need when I'm trying to recover. The first real day I've felt like a person in over a week, and I find out I've been fired. I had four vacation days, and five sick days coming to me, and yet...I won't get paid for it because I don't fucking qualify for time off? Well we'll see what they have to say when I apply for unemployment tomorrow, and my reason for termination is that I don't qualify for a leave of absense.
My throat hurts, my head hurts, I'm tired and a bit queasy, and the last things I should be doing are talking and going out to apply for new jobs, but that's what I'll be doing. There just is a more shitty way to fire someone than while they're recovering from surgery.

Anyway. Sorry to rant, and bring sad thoughts to your friends page, but I wanted to let everyone know that I'm alive, surgery went well. And hopefully I'll be back to regular posts soon. And thanks to everyone who sent warm thoughts and *hugs* when I went in for surgery. I appreciate all your thoughts.

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shadowfell
Jan. 7th, 2004 08:02 am (UTC)
Bitches. ::loads shotgun:: Who do I need to blow up first?

Hope you're feeling well enough to come visit on Friday. Or maybe I'll just come visit you on Saturday. :)
cherith
Jan. 8th, 2004 12:47 pm (UTC)
I think I'll be well enough to come out on Friday. Although, without a job, I'm free this weekend as well, if you wanted to do something.
michellew12278
Jan. 7th, 2004 10:51 am (UTC)
I hope that you get well soon. However, it's important not to rush your recovery. And even though you might feel like you have overstayed your welcome at your friend's place, don't force yourself to return home alone if you're not ready.
keilora
Jan. 9th, 2004 01:44 pm (UTC)
I'm glad to hear that you are on the mend hon. Take your time. That's awful about your job - it must be illegal for them to do that to you. I hope you find another job quickly. -hugs-
cherith
Jan. 9th, 2004 01:55 pm (UTC)
thanks.
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